I wish I could turn back time. Back to the days when I will wake up and see a text message from him. Back to the days, when he'd call me in the middle of the night and end up talking up until sunrise. Back to the days when he repeats my name then tell me how much he loves me.
i tell you, LINDA IS IN A SUPER DUPER FRIGGING BAD MOOD NOW. let me tell you her story, and you will feel the same for her. i think you all should pity her.
she had hfmd, which was a rather mild one like on monday after teaching a certain particular primary school. THANKS SO MUCH. thought she would be cured in 2 days, she didnt tell anyone she was sick. (Y) wonderful.
she only realized that she got hfmd on wed, and the doctor confirmed it. she hurried to text the boss about her condition and told him to find a replacement quick to perform. -hurrah, a replacement has been found-
she hurried to tell another guy about the condition. saying she cannot perform, but she will still be attending the function. -guy tells her its okay, take a rest and stay at home- she told him if she's fine by then, she'll be joining them for all the fun -guy says okok, drink more water and rest well-
a day before -hey, i'm fine alr, ill be going for .... blablablablablabla....- 5 MINS LATER *calls me* -errr. sorry, but really sorry. we thought you werent coming already.. so.. we gave up your seat at the dinner table to someone else.. uh. so we thought we would treat you and the group of friends another day for thanking you guys..- HUR. friends forever, really. thanks. its okay not to have the extra dinner. really. bless you couple though. im pissed with YOU, at how YOU do things.
is it me, or im really just being unlucky these 2 weeks. breakup, all the nonsensical stuff of no communication during rehearsals. sick hfmd replacement of players and now this has to happen.
WONDERFUL.
Linda, smile, because it happened. =)
after all the unlucky ones, will come the good ones, darling.=D
its quite sad.
its okay i guess since ive got really other good friends around. and i guess i need to re focus some areas of my life once again..
i'll prolly go mahjong/movie/shopping/chill out at idk where... BLAH. whatever!
4th dec. i feel so .................. its supposedly one month. i wouldnt say im depressed. but ive been surpressing too many things in my heart already.
sooner or later ill just really break down.
anyways, i thank God ive got really good friends all i had to ask was. "shihhan, you later free?" and then i had something to do already.
wonderful he treated me to u.d.d.e.r.s ice cream which i felt was awesome because it was really sweet and i enjoyed eating while walking and talking to him. Catching up with him on the old times, and how he's doing in school now.. really nice.. its been long since ive had such feelings. blessed and all.
but when im alone, im back to the quiet, moody me. which i feel like shit, because of this shit. because ive trusted you whole heartedly, hence im feeling the pain now..
dearest,
i believed you could give me a good life, you would treat me like a jewel, like a gem, you could change my life with the little things you do. Spend quality time with me during festive occasions and not only when im down and out. but, i guess im wrong after all these had happened. i'm not sad about all these anymore, and all the breakup and hoo-haa. im just u-p-s-e-t with the way you treat me now. im sure id be able to find a much nicer guy than you.
love you with all my heart, i hope we can still be good friends. linda.
"If a kiss were a raindrop, I’d send you showers. If hugs were a second, I’d send you hours. If smiles were water, I’d send you the sea. If love was a person, I’d send you me."
you really made me very upset this time round. i know you dont want to go home with me. till the extend you had to say you were gonna take bus back. i'm seriously hurt.
i think im just plain dumb. and i look like a total complete retarded crying on the train.
i bet you didnt care at all.
friends? ya sure, you were the one who said we should be friends for now. who's the one being not friend at all. i feel so ............... its like, i gave my all and tried my very best to be cheerful and smiley during rehearsal and all already. i told myself never to cry for you, but you just had to come up with such an excuse. and, it really did hurt me.
ive never felt so hurt in my whole entire life before besides grandma leaving us. i guess this christmas and new year is nothing new to me anymore. i was still looking forward to spend all these wonderful festive occasions with you. but i think that its not possible even as friends. since you dont even want to speak to me nor talk to me.
besides me being sad and all.... i think my sis is in love, cos recently she's been receiving many many gifts. i hope that guy isnt like you, being a total jerk. i hope he's really a nice guy to my sis. and not like a total complete jerk.
"But sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, they just can’t love you back in the same way. Believe me. Living with someone who can’t love you back …is way lonelier than being alone."
"I love you” means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. “I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.
there are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i want to do .. =( not in order though. 1) Sentosa 2) badminton 3) bball 4) shopping for new clothes 5) swimming 6) party with my friends 7) meet up with friends to chill 8) Moviesss marathon 9) night cycling 10)chalet 11)stayover at friends' place 12) BBQ 13) picnic 14) travelling around to eat good food 15) go ikea to window shop and eat hotdog 16)buy gifts! where's the moneyyyy! =( 18) science centre 19) botanic gdns! 20) night safari 21) make breakfast with dearest <3 22) chill with my baby (:
i love my darling (: he's playing mahjong and ignoring me again =(
can $$$$$ drop down from the sky or something pleaseeeee?=(
OH OH OH . AND I CANT WAIT FOR TWINS BIG 18TH THIS FRI (: , stayover & chill1!! (: and and and LILING'S WEDDING plusplusplus JEREMYLIM AND LYNETTE WEDDING!! (the wedding horn quartet) OH PLUS PLUS PLUS SHIHHAN'S BIG 18th on 25th!! ANDDDDDDDDD CHRISTMAS + NEWYR!!!! omg so egggggciting (: teeeheee. but that's all only gonna happen in dec =( can time hurry pass please? r4
i cant wait for christmas, knowing you've got something in mind to do for me (: but i dont know what to do .. maybe i should start thinking .. =)
i must be crazy to be mad about every single thing last night. =(
linda is really really a blessed girl (: she's loved by everyone <3 she has a happy family :D many many many good friends (:
i love you baby! =D thank you for loving me with all your heart too <3
teeheee. speak of the devil. play mj must win more $$ okay =D
Linda is feeling sick, she didnt go to school tonight to practice horn. in fact, she wasted one whole day =( haissss. ellise came over and we talk cock a bit. hahahahhaas. (: i love her!
"all guys are the same, i just havent met the perfect one, once you've jio-ed her, you push her aside." -from jo's blog.
well. i must say that its kinda true. its been 5 days. i know exams are important. but are they so important that you dont reply my texts? the problem is i dont even know about your whereabouts/how you're doing. yet my bestest knows everything. i dont even get an offline message from you; how sad is that. its like totally no communication between us.
though i know you love me deep from the bottom of your heart, how sweet and all.. but you should at least talk to me, or let me know how you are? i dont wanna make a big fuss and all about this thing cause i know exams are very important to you. you may be thinking why i didnt bother calling you thats cause i wanted you to concentrate and focus on your exams, knowing you cant multitask.
i want to shout out: ARE YOU STUPID OR JUST PLAIN DUMB?!?!?!? MY BROTHER IS SUCH A PAIN IN AN ASS. HE THINKS HE'S TOO GOOD OR SMTH. HE JUST LOST SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND. GUYS WHO CHEATS ON GIRLS SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE. THANKS.
you think you're so frigging smart? please get out of the house, i want to see how you're gonna survive on your own, idiot. cheryl is such a nice and thoughtful girl, you are such a jerk, you dont deserve her you idiot. got another girl outside? hur. i bet she cant last. you HOPELESS FREAK.
you know whats the saddest thing? oh wait. maybe im not that sad afterall. i dont even know whats in my memory for such a sibling. so useless and hopeless. cant even do anything to save his own ass.
no more kiki, no more random talks no more make up =(
i missssssss you=( its been 2 days; oh well i hope your exams go well =)
school's out for the first semester! YOOOHOO. its party + prac on my own time!! well. laoshi just called while i was napping. PS tmr @ yst! hmmmm. i hope im prepared for his lesson. =X
The weathers' been ~~~~ its freezing me.. and i wished i could just hug you. im like so afraid that i'll fall sick and all=(
it was so good to see my juniors and fellow alumnis again =D i love amandeeee <333 i love jessica <333 i love the horns <333
sometimes.. i feel that when you talk to others.. you're happier.
in short, you're happier without me.
i dont know why i feel this way, maybe its because the way you talk to me, and to others.
sorry for everything, perhaps you'll never ever see all these, but i must still say i love you. for being such a wonderful capable person whom everyone needs.
whats so nice quarrelling over such stuff? it just makes everybody feel like shit.
what left me heartbroken and sad was when you said you might leave.
Horoscope from the facebook:
"Your Love Horoscope Recovery is the name of the love game today, Libra. If you have been working on some painful issues, you can expect these to blow over by the day's end. If you are attached, you may even find someone seeking forgiveness for a grudge that you have been holding in. Single? Do not be surprised if someone from your past makes an appearance and is looking to re-connect. Do not jump to conclusions here, it is possible for people to change and this may well be just the transformation you have been looking for. A bumpy ride is expected today, but you will find yourself smiling by days end."
true enough, it was a bumpy ride. and hopefully everything will be fine.
"Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."
saw this in someone's blog i think it really makes a lot of sense, and makes me think a lot right nao.
i dont know if he's the one..... he's awesome for nao. the one who knows what i like/dislike, knows when im sad knows how to take the initiative. knows how to teach me stuff the one who loves me.
what would actually have happened if i already said yes on that day? would all these thoughts have come into his mind? i considered every single thing carefully, ......................
lindaa: (1:13 AM) HOW COME LAST TIME YOU LIKE ME HAHAHAHA LOL him: (1:13 AM) love is blind lindaa: (1:13 AM) yah, you're blind you mean? him: (1:13 AM) somethings cannot explain him: (1:13 AM) no lindaa: (1:13 AM) thats so vague him: (1:13 AM) i mean love has no meaning him: (1:14 AM) dun need reason
camwhore! R: i see $1 on the toppings ME: no i see $2. $1 for maple syrup and $1 for hazelnut flakes R: wth. R: i see $5 worth of waffle *STARES AT THE WAFFLE* ME: the chef too hungry or smth, the sides are teared off somemore. ME: walao. waste my 5 bucks. *Ralph gives a pathetic stare at the icecream we ordered*
see how small is our $5 bucks waffle? think Gelare is 1293812312x bigger
claims his hand is very veryyyyyy stable while taking photos.
Leon!
he called:"walao, your cookies 很难吃咯, even weiqin said so"
lesson learnt: dont buy Mrs fields. cookies.
TASTES HORRIBLE. + waste my $$$$$
half way through the concert, after intermission, we went down to the foyer stalls seats.
cause at circle 2, the kids up there were @#$!#$@! noisy.
=(
bad kids.
.
.
at the backstage!
Liyan =) she dressed up really nice that night,
hahaha. thanks for the pay babe!
Audreyyyyy!
after the concert at box office there
enjoyed that day, though it started of with a really bad news i didnt get in nyw.
but all the laughing terribly sessions. hahahhaa
i think its just, the st. pats thing.
hhaha. .
.
concert was uh, good?
i hope at least cmw's limelight would be at least of this standard.
hi, linda didnt get in nyw. how awesome is it. . "good tone, good range of notes," yada yada... "style of mozart wrong" . you know what? WHATEVER. . awesome shit right? its me myself that i cannot get over it, yes. disappointment? yea. duh. . . you think im lying to you? im not being serious? im telling you im dead serious here. . . seriously. i know the ultimate thing is to own your damn self. i must say, this audition i played much better than nafa's audition. so just, what's wrong? i need to know what's my mistake in order to even get-over-it. . . tell me, i need to know what's wrong. . . kor called me just now. i was seriously crying already. i cannot hold back my tears. im such a noob. fricking noob. but i wanna say thanks. thanks for encouraging me and all, like yah, seriously. . . thanks jo, thanks linhao. . . "its not about how you own others, its about how you own yourself" - unknown.
hahhahaa. i must say i love dad.<3 . . . the past few nights was stressing . no horn , no tutor, no nothing. study what? play what? =.= . . . dad emailed me today. "re:horn tuition?" i was shocked! amazingly it seems as though daddy knew what i needed or something. hahahahaa. . . . well. NYW. hope ill get in ya.. hope i get a horn soon. and hope i get a tutor soon. =D. . . . auditions was, fine i guess? sorta screwed up quite a bit. but ya. hahaha. i think im getting used to all the nervous-ness and all already. ytd's playing was much better than nafa's audition. hahahahaa but ytd still sucked =X . . . "A goal without a plan is just a wish."
I wish I could turn back time. Back to the days when I will wake up and see a text message from him. Back to the days, when he'd call me in the middle of the night and end up talking up until sunrise. Back to the days when he repeats my name then tell me how much he loves me.
i tell you, LINDA IS IN A SUPER DUPER FRIGGING BAD MOOD NOW. let me tell you her story, and you will feel the same for her. i think you all should pity her.
she had hfmd, which was a rather mild one like on monday after teaching a certain particular primary school. THANKS SO MUCH. thought she would be cured in 2 days, she didnt tell anyone she was sick. (Y) wonderful.
she only realized that she got hfmd on wed, and the doctor confirmed it. she hurried to text the boss about her condition and told him to find a replacement quick to perform. -hurrah, a replacement has been found-
she hurried to tell another guy about the condition. saying she cannot perform, but she will still be attending the function. -guy tells her its okay, take a rest and stay at home- she told him if she's fine by then, she'll be joining them for all the fun -guy says okok, drink more water and rest well-
a day before -hey, i'm fine alr, ill be going for .... blablablablablabla....- 5 MINS LATER *calls me* -errr. sorry, but really sorry. we thought you werent coming already.. so.. we gave up your seat at the dinner table to someone else.. uh. so we thought we would treat you and the group of friends another day for thanking you guys..- HUR. friends forever, really. thanks. its okay not to have the extra dinner. really. bless you couple though. im pissed with YOU, at how YOU do things.
is it me, or im really just being unlucky these 2 weeks. breakup, all the nonsensical stuff of no communication during rehearsals. sick hfmd replacement of players and now this has to happen.
WONDERFUL.
Linda, smile, because it happened. =)
after all the unlucky ones, will come the good ones, darling.=D
its quite sad.
its okay i guess since ive got really other good friends around. and i guess i need to re focus some areas of my life once again..
i'll prolly go mahjong/movie/shopping/chill out at idk where... BLAH. whatever!
4th dec. i feel so .................. its supposedly one month. i wouldnt say im depressed. but ive been surpressing too many things in my heart already.
sooner or later ill just really break down.
anyways, i thank God ive got really good friends all i had to ask was. "shihhan, you later free?" and then i had something to do already.
wonderful he treated me to u.d.d.e.r.s ice cream which i felt was awesome because it was really sweet and i enjoyed eating while walking and talking to him. Catching up with him on the old times, and how he's doing in school now.. really nice.. its been long since ive had such feelings. blessed and all.
but when im alone, im back to the quiet, moody me. which i feel like shit, because of this shit. because ive trusted you whole heartedly, hence im feeling the pain now..
dearest,
i believed you could give me a good life, you would treat me like a jewel, like a gem, you could change my life with the little things you do. Spend quality time with me during festive occasions and not only when im down and out. but, i guess im wrong after all these had happened. i'm not sad about all these anymore, and all the breakup and hoo-haa. im just u-p-s-e-t with the way you treat me now. im sure id be able to find a much nicer guy than you.
love you with all my heart, i hope we can still be good friends. linda.
"If a kiss were a raindrop, I’d send you showers. If hugs were a second, I’d send you hours. If smiles were water, I’d send you the sea. If love was a person, I’d send you me."
you really made me very upset this time round. i know you dont want to go home with me. till the extend you had to say you were gonna take bus back. i'm seriously hurt.
i think im just plain dumb. and i look like a total complete retarded crying on the train.
i bet you didnt care at all.
friends? ya sure, you were the one who said we should be friends for now. who's the one being not friend at all. i feel so ............... its like, i gave my all and tried my very best to be cheerful and smiley during rehearsal and all already. i told myself never to cry for you, but you just had to come up with such an excuse. and, it really did hurt me.
ive never felt so hurt in my whole entire life before besides grandma leaving us. i guess this christmas and new year is nothing new to me anymore. i was still looking forward to spend all these wonderful festive occasions with you. but i think that its not possible even as friends. since you dont even want to speak to me nor talk to me.
besides me being sad and all.... i think my sis is in love, cos recently she's been receiving many many gifts. i hope that guy isnt like you, being a total jerk. i hope he's really a nice guy to my sis. and not like a total complete jerk.
"But sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, they just can’t love you back in the same way. Believe me. Living with someone who can’t love you back …is way lonelier than being alone."
"I love you” means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. “I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.
there are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i want to do .. =( not in order though. 1) Sentosa 2) badminton 3) bball 4) shopping for new clothes 5) swimming 6) party with my friends 7) meet up with friends to chill 8) Moviesss marathon 9) night cycling 10)chalet 11)stayover at friends' place 12) BBQ 13) picnic 14) travelling around to eat good food 15) go ikea to window shop and eat hotdog 16)buy gifts! where's the moneyyyy! =( 18) science centre 19) botanic gdns! 20) night safari 21) make breakfast with dearest <3 22) chill with my baby (:
i love my darling (: he's playing mahjong and ignoring me again =(
can $$$$$ drop down from the sky or something pleaseeeee?=(
OH OH OH . AND I CANT WAIT FOR TWINS BIG 18TH THIS FRI (: , stayover & chill1!! (: and and and LILING'S WEDDING plusplusplus JEREMYLIM AND LYNETTE WEDDING!! (the wedding horn quartet) OH PLUS PLUS PLUS SHIHHAN'S BIG 18th on 25th!! ANDDDDDDDDD CHRISTMAS + NEWYR!!!! omg so egggggciting (: teeeheee. but that's all only gonna happen in dec =( can time hurry pass please? r4
i cant wait for christmas, knowing you've got something in mind to do for me (: but i dont know what to do .. maybe i should start thinking .. =)
i must be crazy to be mad about every single thing last night. =(
linda is really really a blessed girl (: she's loved by everyone <3 she has a happy family :D many many many good friends (:
i love you baby! =D thank you for loving me with all your heart too <3
teeheee. speak of the devil. play mj must win more $$ okay =D
Linda is feeling sick, she didnt go to school tonight to practice horn. in fact, she wasted one whole day =( haissss. ellise came over and we talk cock a bit. hahahahhaas. (: i love her!
"all guys are the same, i just havent met the perfect one, once you've jio-ed her, you push her aside." -from jo's blog.
well. i must say that its kinda true. its been 5 days. i know exams are important. but are they so important that you dont reply my texts? the problem is i dont even know about your whereabouts/how you're doing. yet my bestest knows everything. i dont even get an offline message from you; how sad is that. its like totally no communication between us.
though i know you love me deep from the bottom of your heart, how sweet and all.. but you should at least talk to me, or let me know how you are? i dont wanna make a big fuss and all about this thing cause i know exams are very important to you. you may be thinking why i didnt bother calling you thats cause i wanted you to concentrate and focus on your exams, knowing you cant multitask.
i want to shout out: ARE YOU STUPID OR JUST PLAIN DUMB?!?!?!? MY BROTHER IS SUCH A PAIN IN AN ASS. HE THINKS HE'S TOO GOOD OR SMTH. HE JUST LOST SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND. GUYS WHO CHEATS ON GIRLS SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE. THANKS.
you think you're so frigging smart? please get out of the house, i want to see how you're gonna survive on your own, idiot. cheryl is such a nice and thoughtful girl, you are such a jerk, you dont deserve her you idiot. got another girl outside? hur. i bet she cant last. you HOPELESS FREAK.
you know whats the saddest thing? oh wait. maybe im not that sad afterall. i dont even know whats in my memory for such a sibling. so useless and hopeless. cant even do anything to save his own ass.
no more kiki, no more random talks no more make up =(
i missssssss you=( its been 2 days; oh well i hope your exams go well =)
school's out for the first semester! YOOOHOO. its party + prac on my own time!! well. laoshi just called while i was napping. PS tmr @ yst! hmmmm. i hope im prepared for his lesson. =X
The weathers' been ~~~~ its freezing me.. and i wished i could just hug you. im like so afraid that i'll fall sick and all=(
it was so good to see my juniors and fellow alumnis again =D i love amandeeee <333 i love jessica <333 i love the horns <333
sometimes.. i feel that when you talk to others.. you're happier.
in short, you're happier without me.
i dont know why i feel this way, maybe its because the way you talk to me, and to others.
sorry for everything, perhaps you'll never ever see all these, but i must still say i love you. for being such a wonderful capable person whom everyone needs.
whats so nice quarrelling over such stuff? it just makes everybody feel like shit.
what left me heartbroken and sad was when you said you might leave.
Horoscope from the facebook:
"Your Love Horoscope Recovery is the name of the love game today, Libra. If you have been working on some painful issues, you can expect these to blow over by the day's end. If you are attached, you may even find someone seeking forgiveness for a grudge that you have been holding in. Single? Do not be surprised if someone from your past makes an appearance and is looking to re-connect. Do not jump to conclusions here, it is possible for people to change and this may well be just the transformation you have been looking for. A bumpy ride is expected today, but you will find yourself smiling by days end."
true enough, it was a bumpy ride. and hopefully everything will be fine.
"Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."
saw this in someone's blog i think it really makes a lot of sense, and makes me think a lot right nao.
i dont know if he's the one..... he's awesome for nao. the one who knows what i like/dislike, knows when im sad knows how to take the initiative. knows how to teach me stuff the one who loves me.
what would actually have happened if i already said yes on that day? would all these thoughts have come into his mind? i considered every single thing carefully, ......................
lindaa: (1:13 AM) HOW COME LAST TIME YOU LIKE ME HAHAHAHA LOL him: (1:13 AM) love is blind lindaa: (1:13 AM) yah, you're blind you mean? him: (1:13 AM) somethings cannot explain him: (1:13 AM) no lindaa: (1:13 AM) thats so vague him: (1:13 AM) i mean love has no meaning him: (1:14 AM) dun need reason
camwhore! R: i see $1 on the toppings ME: no i see $2. $1 for maple syrup and $1 for hazelnut flakes R: wth. R: i see $5 worth of waffle *STARES AT THE WAFFLE* ME: the chef too hungry or smth, the sides are teared off somemore. ME: walao. waste my 5 bucks. *Ralph gives a pathetic stare at the icecream we ordered*
see how small is our $5 bucks waffle? think Gelare is 1293812312x bigger
claims his hand is very veryyyyyy stable while taking photos.
Leon!
he called:"walao, your cookies 很难吃咯, even weiqin said so"
lesson learnt: dont buy Mrs fields. cookies.
TASTES HORRIBLE. + waste my $$$$$
half way through the concert, after intermission, we went down to the foyer stalls seats.
cause at circle 2, the kids up there were @#$!#$@! noisy.
=(
bad kids.
.
.
at the backstage!
Liyan =) she dressed up really nice that night,
hahaha. thanks for the pay babe!
Audreyyyyy!
after the concert at box office there
enjoyed that day, though it started of with a really bad news i didnt get in nyw.
but all the laughing terribly sessions. hahahhaa
i think its just, the st. pats thing.
hhaha. .
.
concert was uh, good?
i hope at least cmw's limelight would be at least of this standard.
hi, linda didnt get in nyw. how awesome is it. . "good tone, good range of notes," yada yada... "style of mozart wrong" . you know what? WHATEVER. . awesome shit right? its me myself that i cannot get over it, yes. disappointment? yea. duh. . . you think im lying to you? im not being serious? im telling you im dead serious here. . . seriously. i know the ultimate thing is to own your damn self. i must say, this audition i played much better than nafa's audition. so just, what's wrong? i need to know what's my mistake in order to even get-over-it. . . tell me, i need to know what's wrong. . . kor called me just now. i was seriously crying already. i cannot hold back my tears. im such a noob. fricking noob. but i wanna say thanks. thanks for encouraging me and all, like yah, seriously. . . thanks jo, thanks linhao. . . "its not about how you own others, its about how you own yourself" - unknown.
hahhahaa. i must say i love dad.<3 . . . the past few nights was stressing . no horn , no tutor, no nothing. study what? play what? =.= . . . dad emailed me today. "re:horn tuition?" i was shocked! amazingly it seems as though daddy knew what i needed or something. hahahahaa. . . . well. NYW. hope ill get in ya.. hope i get a horn soon. and hope i get a tutor soon. =D. . . . auditions was, fine i guess? sorta screwed up quite a bit. but ya. hahaha. i think im getting used to all the nervous-ness and all already. ytd's playing was much better than nafa's audition. hahahahaa but ytd still sucked =X . . . "A goal without a plan is just a wish."
How I feel
hello mirror =D
ahhhhh. love love l-o-v-e you people!
AC BAND BBQ! 
SHENGLONG.
see what i mean by a whole group of us? 
awesomeeeee friends<3
camwhore!
Audreyyyyy!
enjoyed that day, though it started of with a really bad news i didnt get in nyw.
